WHEN LOVES REAL{IT NEVER FALLS}

ITS 10:34 AND IM JUST SITTIN HERE THINKING ABOUT SOMETHINGS AND ONE PERTICULAR PERSON! IDK WHY HE KEEPS COMING UP IN MY OR WHY WEN I DRIVE BY HIS JOB I FELL THE NEED TO STOP BY AND SAY HAY WITH HUGS AND MABY A KISS! IM SURE I LOVE HIM BUT IM NOT SURE IF HE IS WHAT I REALLY BECAUSE IV BEEN HURT BY HIM SO MANY TIMES! IN SOME PART OF ME WANTS HIM BACK IN OTHERS IM JUST QUESTIONING HOW HE FEELS~THATS ONLY BECAUSE HE DOESNT LIKE TO EXPRESS HOW HE FEELS BUT LOVES TO KEEP GUESSING ON MY TOES! THERE ARE PARTS OF HIM THAT DO MAKE ME HAPPY THOUGHT! HES VERY RESPECTFUL OF MY FEELINGS AND OF ME! A TRUE GENTLEMAN BUT AT THE SAME TIME HE DOESNT KNOW EVERTHING HE WANTS IN A WOMAN OR A GIRL! THAT CONFUSES ME SO MUCH BECAUSE I HAVE A PRETTY GOOD IDEA OF WHAT I EXPECT OUT OF MAN OR A GUY! ITS A TRICKY SITUATION WITH TO BE HONEST AT TIMES! HIS PERSONALITY IS TO KARZIE IN A GOOD WAY BECAUSE I LOVE TO LAUGH AND HAVE A GOOD TIME!{ITS A MUST]! I COULD MAKE A LIST BUT IM NOT GOING TO WASTE MY TIME RIGHT NOW! I WAS REALLI YOUNG WHEN WE MET AND HE WAS MIDDLE AGE! I GUESS I COULD SAY HE WAS MY FIRST AND ITS HARD LETTING GO OF YOUR FIRST LOVE THAT I KNOW! I CANT BLAME IT ALL ON HIM BECAUSE I KNO I HURT HIM MANY TIMES TO BUT NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT I KNOW THAT EVERTIME HE CAME BACK OPEN ARMS STILL LOVING ME NOMATTER WHAT! SO I COULDNT OR CANT GIVE ANYGUY ALL THE LOVE THAT I HAVE FOR HIM BY NO MEANS AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE! STILL I THINK ITS TIME TO MOVE ON AND QUIT DWELLING ON HIM THE WAY I DO BEFOR I END UP WITH A BROKEN HEART AGAIN! ITS TOUGH BUT IM NOT THE TYPE TO GIVE UP UNTIL I REALLY KNO THAT I NEED TO AND HES NOT GIVING ME THE SIGNS TO GO AWAY! SO I THINK DEEP DOWN IN HIS HEART HIS FEELINGS ARE AS DEEP AS MINE! IT MIGHT TAKE HIM LONGER TO EXPRESS IT IN A VERBAL WAY BUT HIS SHY SIGNALS ARE ENOUGH FOR NOW!